Weird...

So, it is weird. I am at a loss of what to say. I guess maybe there is so much going on and so many things happening to me, and I wonder so often what the heck you think of me...I think as time goes by I get more and more convinced that you just didn't like what you saw and that made it easy for you. I feel so strongly in my heart, though, and I believed so strongly in what I felt - the feeling that I was almost positive that we shared - that it puzzles me. Man! I need to know one day soon. God help me. OK well, I think I am going to like Chicago. I wonder if they are making me wait on purpose or what? It's exciting and scary at the same time. And sometimes I feel bad for wanting to find a man who will love me and treat me right. I know that I have one who loves me, but he just did me wrong too many times, and I think was just wrong for me from the beginning. It's terrible that I feel that way, but I think that there is just no going back.
Oh how I wish we could talk and at least be friends even though I know it might be impossible and to weird. I just miss you - so much about you. I know I sound dumb saying that, but it is what it is.

Bye!
Me