Where Did I Go Right?

Well, once again, here I am...still frustrated, but very feisty and energetic today. :) So, I definitely have an overall upbeat mood today. I think I am feeling pretty liberated. I had a nice weekend. Got to go visit a good friend of mine, do a little target shooting, go to choir practice with an awesome choir director P. Busselburg. Anyway, and of course as usual thoughts of you consumed my mind in absolutely everything I did. I just don't really see the point of fighting it right now. I'm just going with it.

The title of the post is the name of a song that I listened to a few times this weekend thinking of you and I brought it in to work to save onto my PC. When it was playing I thought I would flip over, sign in, and go ahead and TRY to get the tiniest millionth of a part of what is on my mind out! Anyway, I have to say I love you because that it was is the most prominent thing on my mind. Now, you have to know I have constantly conflicting thoughts on myself, on you, on us...I go back and forth on the wrong, the right, the in between, the what was, what could have been, what could still be, and what could not be. Okay, I would probably only drive you away further if you read this because you would think I was crazy, but I don't care...i feel so free. In any case, I feel super blessed to have known you and experienced everything I did with you. It was the most amazing feelings ever...I felt so lucky to be loved by you. It was so different than anything I ever felt or experienced or even imagined. I can't even really explain why, but I wonder if you know why.
Where did I go right, how did I get you?
How come all this blue sky is around me and you found me?
I don't know how I did, but somehow now I do.

This is another quote/thought I had for you today...my own original. I might just tweet it, or I might keep it to myself. Here it is plain and simple: "You bring out the me in me."

One day I will tell you that to your face, I hope. I was remembering how you asked me one time if you were bringing out the worst in me. And I said no. I actually think you brought out a LOT of GOOD in me, even if I also crossed some lines I shouldn't have crossed. And that is how I was thinking about it today and came up with "You bring out the me in me". Whether it be good or bad, you brought out life and liberty and thought and so much more...I have to THANK YOU one day.

Gotta go to my appointment. Take care of yourself and your heart and I hope to see you before eternity, but if not then in eternity. I love you always for what you are and what you have done for me.

Me