Hard to keep up with this!

I just have to say I am not keeping up with my thoughts and feelings very well here but let me tell you, you are CONSUMING MY THOUGHTS NIGHT AND DAY!

I have a lot of crazy hectic situations going on here, but I am so happy that I am finally at least doing something about ALL OF THEM.

Thank you for the motivation and inspiration that you may never know you have given me. You are so special and so dear to my heart that I hope one day I will be able to tell you. I hope you are not angry with me or hate me or think I am utterly disgusting. I'm gonna show you how good I can be hopefully.

But, I am still trying to put my faith and trust in God first. I get a little silly at times, but my gosh - a girl has to have some fun!

Anyway, as I said, I think of you constantly...I don't know if it is a punishment or what, but it's not all bad...like I say, it at least makes me think about things and motivates me to do SOMETHING rather than NOTHING!

You did amaze me, and I am still amazed at what you brought out in me. I wish that I could have had more time to do something for you, or at least to know if I left you better or worse than I found you.

I honestly love you,
My heart is forever yours,
M